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Bolden: A feelin'. And ain't nobody can take credit for a
feelin'. Feelin' is
something -- well, either you got it or you don't.
Can't invent no feelin'.
Hayes: Well, I suppose you can invent a way to express a
feeling. Jazz might be
just that;
a new method of expressing --
Bolden: No. The method don't matter. Listen, this jass
thing -- it mighta passed
through me its first time round, but that
don't make it mine. Or nobody else's
neither. It just is. Passed through
me -- what good it doin' me now? Passed
through Jim Jam Jump --
you say he's already near forgotten. Now it's passin'
through Ferd
Morton -- his time with it'll be over soon enough. Next in line --
who knows? Only thing fer sure; if it caught on real big like you say, don't
matter
how it got started. A butterfly might flap his little wings in China,
that little bit
o'wind travelin' all the way round the world, wind up a
hurricane in Galveston.
Think anyone in Galveston give two shits about which
butterfly wrecked their city?
Hayes: I suppose not.
Bolden: Course not. That'd be a trivial curiosity, nothing
more.
Hayes: Some people say it's a matter of heritage. They say
the white musicians
are trying to take credit for something that belongs to
the coloreds.
Bolden: I say let 'em have it. With no problem. They want
the credit? They got
the credit. I'm the easiest credit man in town.
I say, I say, I say, I say! That
won't change what's true -- and
the truth have a way of revealing itself over the
long run, anyhow. Hell,
white folk deserve some recognition -- it was white
people what made it
popular in the sportin' houses in the first place. You think
we was playing for the benefit of
negroes in them days? No, sir. No
indeed.
Hayes: Interesting point.
Bolden: Look, Mister Reporter, I guess you could say jass
enriched my life in
some ways; lotsa fine women looking after me, and some
pretty good money
from time to time -- but also it brought me low;
brought me to a place like this.
And maybe I was meant to end up in this
place, just as jass mighta been meant
to be a music from black folk
but for white folk. 'Course, it won't sound the
same nor as good if
black folks ain't playin' it, but possession is nine tenths of
the law they
say - and it's the white folks got money to do the possessin'. One
thing fer
certain; that jass music can mess with a man's spirit, and if they ain't
careful, could be some white folk end up in a place like this, too. Along
with
possessin' come responsibility, y'see -- and with responsibility
come risk. And
sometimes that risk can fall down hard on a man's soul.
Y'see, most white folk
think black folk is weak of mind and spirit, and this
belief makes 'em feel
superior. That superior feelin' can keep a man from
being cautious, can cause
a man to slip, to fall.
Hayes: I see.
Bolden: No, I don't think you do see. No matter, though. I
don't want no
damn credit for this "phenomenon," as you call it. Too much
damn responsibility.
I do miss the ladies, though. Jass was definitely good
for that. (smiling)
Hayes: About Dominick Carolla --
Bolden: Jim Jam Jump, you mean. (scowling)
Hayes: Yes, Jim Jam Jump.
Bolden: Damn punk stole my horn.
Hayes: Stole more than that, if you ask me. But I was
wondering what memories
you may have of him personally. Any significant
interactions between the two of
you that you can recall?
Bolden: (pausing to think) Nah, I don't wanna get on this.
Why don't we change
the subject, sonny?
Hayes: Soon -- but I do have a question about a
particular instance, if you don't
mind...
Bolden: (sighing) All right, then. Out with it.
Hayes: In 1891 when you were just fourteen years
old -- you were questioned
as a witness to a homicide --
Bolden: (Surprised expression) Man, you sure done yer
homework. I'll give
you that.
Hayes: A man called Morningstar, a preacher, was killed
that night. And a man
named Marshall Trumbo was there -- a white
man.
Bolden: Newspaper man. Like you.
Hayes: That's right. And Caro -- I mean, Jim Jam Jump
was also there. But he
was only a baby.
Bolden: (far away look) I seen some things that
night.
Hayes: What can you tell me about that night?
Bolden: I was just a kid. Old man now. Can't remember much
of it.
Hayes: Mr. Bolden, please...
Bolden: (angry) Goddamn it, I told you not to call me
that!
Hayes: I'm
sorry, it slipped --
Bolden: What's this about? Why you here really? Shoulda
damn known it had
nothin' to do with no fuck-music. You been playin' me,
aintcha, Mister Reporter?
Hayes: No, no -- not at all. It's just that I had
heard some things and I wanted to
see if there was any connection
--
Bolden: Well, I don't remember nothin' bout that night.
Nothing, you hear? You
want to know about all that crazy stuff, why dontcha
go talk to the gravedigger?
That fool nigger loves to flap his
gums.
Hayes: What gravedigger?
Bolden: You know -- Marcus. From Girod Street
Cemetery. Ugly son of a bitch
with no nose.
Hayes: Marcus James?
Bolden: Nobody Special.
Hayes: Excuse me?
Bolden: I don't know his real last name. Everybody call him
Marcus Nobody
Special. That's all I know. Go talk to him. He remembers
everything. Or so he
pretends. I think we're done here, sonny. (Getting up
to leave) Thanks for the
company. I got a busy day of being crazy to tend to
now, if you don't mind.
Hayes: One more question if you don't mind. Please?
Buddy?
Bolden: (Stops with back turned to Hayes) I might not
answer, but go ahead.
Hayes: Marshall Trumbo is -- well, he lives here too.
He's been here since
before you.
Bolden: Yeah, so what of it?
Hayes: I was wondering if you ever had occasion to speak
with him. I mean,
since you've been here.
Bolden: That man is white, sonny. I never been over to the
white end of this
place. Didn't even know there was a white end. If there
is, I imagine it's pretty
posh. Not like here. But no, I ain't never seen
him since that night. Hope never
ta see him or anyone else from that night
ever again, neither. Now, if you'll
excuse me.
Hayes: Thank you for your time, Buddy.
Bolden: Shit. (walks away quickly through main
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